Battle With the Mirror

My daughter is almost 7 months now and I've lost a lot of the weight I gained when I was pregnant, but the problem isn't with the weight its with the excess skin that has cause a flap on my stomach. Now, I've never had the flat stomach but the excess flap and the stretch marks have made it to where the thought of putting my bikini on again almost makes me sick. I've started to work out with my kinect, I've cut back on sugar, but I honestly don't think that the lovely flap with ever leave. For the longest time I would find myself tearing up over the loss of my pre-baby body... I never boasted to have a model figure but I had a pretty good shape. I could eat what I wanted and still not battle with my jeans like I have been.

But something hit me recently.. I was at home having a normal day, dancing with my vaccum and I caught my reflection in a mirror in our hallway. My hair was a mess, my glasses were at the tip of my nose, my eyebrows needed waxing, I had baby food on my shirt, and my jeans weren't fittng right. I realized, I had changed since I had gotten pregnant. Not just physically, but mentally too. I used to get excited about a new pair of shoes, now I get excited about coupons and planners. I had battled so much with my reflection wanting to get back to the person I was before I had had my daughter. But the truth is children change you, they're supposed to change you; mentally, emotionally, and even physically. So, as I stared at myself in the mirror four words came to me that made all the difference in my life 'I'm bringing sexy back'. Sexy to me is no longer the stilletto heals, (although I do find myself wearing them when I clean...they're good for your legs!) or about having the bikini ready body. Sexy has become making sure my daughter has a smile on her face, and that she is getting everything she needs and has an environment that she is safe in. Sexy isn't going to the bars and staying out til the crack of dawn, but waking up at the crack of dawn to a smiling little girl thats ready to start her day.

So I'm bringing sexy back, and redefining it. I'm a mother, and to me, that is sexy. So, all you mom's out there, new and old. Bring sexy back! Better yet, lets redefine it by raising our children the best we can despite the baby food stained shirts, and the crack of dawn mornings, we are still women and we are still beautiful!